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poetry by J.J.Oosthuizen
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somthing wonderfull
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hi so its been a while i have been back for a week to night. i traveled to london and then to south africa were i was born. and you know while i was there i had fun and i also realised somthing it is wonder full and also sad in a sence i thought about love and what it really means i found the meaning and know now what i went wrong on with all my relationshipps you know you could love some one with all your heart and all your soul but there is a way to love some one do you want to know what it is i will tell you one thing that i realised but first a question are you a posesive person? another question do you know what posesive means? if you do then wther your sig other dosnt or you have the most wonderfull relationship in the world. now what does posesive mean i didnt but now i do and ill tell you if you are in one or two examples ok #1 when you find a sig other do you want to be with them all the time and dont want to share them with any one not meaning that you force them to be with you but you just love them so much that you feel anxious inside all the time when you arnt with them right you love them so much you call them 20 times a day worrying were they are like a mother it is hard to see that you are posesive i know it was hard for me and now i lost but i hope i have found a gain i dont know but any way do you catch my drift i know i was wrong but ment well even tho it seems i am rude some times im just playing you know like children maybe you dont but any way i want you back and im sorry maybe it is to late maybe not i dont know maybe you feel again maybe not but i know i still feel and i mean if you dont want anything then it is ok i will leave it at that and we can be friends but i wont forget the feelings even if i get married one day i will always love you but hey maybe ill never get married lol well see
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som thing wonder full is happning in my life
i dont know what but i think it is coming to me
i donnt really know but any way it feels good
im not a nobody like i thought there is some one who thinks of me.
thank you you make my heart very happy.
i thank every one dont get me wrong
it is just that this person im refering to is a very special person. the most butifull i know. this person WOW that is all i can say. a million smiles come from my face when this person i near.
but any way this is a poem for that special person.
all is sweet in your eyes
all of kindness i see
not for gotten
you remember me
and all my sorrow
flows out of me
you make me feel
like i belong
i do beleve
there is somthing
but what it is
can only be
that once before
we were blind to see
that what we really need
is to care and be.
my sweetest friend were have you been
i think of thee till soon i gleem
so sweet in my memoreys
and when im back i hope that i may see
this caring we share
will once more be.
J.J.Oosthuizen
for you my friend.:)
life is so strange. living day by day really sux lol but i bet alot of people could tell me that.
but any way i think im in love. not with a person but with the world it seems that the world is here and im here because of the world ive always loved it even tho it treated me a little harsh some times. but i have really grown with it my mind is open to all things and all new things to try. i am a good listner even tho i dont show it i am also a caring person one of my things i cant help to stop caring i just do and once some one told me i dont care about there feelings but that is wrong i do care about you even tho i dont show it in the way you want i do care i really do. so any way mmmh what else can i tell you im flying to africa on the 7 aug 99 i hope to have fun there i wanted to take some one with me but i guess that person dosnt want to go. with me anyway. hmmm am i babeling lol
so anyway love is love and all is sweet.
wondering what is so calm in your mind you laugh
small and large
we all seem to be
one of the same
see the sky its so beautifull
like you
i saw you face in the frame
oh so sweet the smile you have
i miss
the sun the moon the stars in there beauty
i whish i could hold in my hand
to be with you
would be all heaven
to hold all extacy
id feel so free in your arms
nothing could make me cry
to see a shooting star
the only whish id make
to have you in my arms for eturnity
now with this note i depart
maybe one day our eyes might open
and see
J.J.Oosthuizen
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CAN YOU CATCH ME BEFORE I HIT THE GROUND?
So the darkness is still in my soul drowning out all the light. I still fall deeper not knowing when i will be caught or hit the ground. Light brighter almost visible but the shadows drown it out and darkness fall upon my soul again. When will you catch me and pull me out of this hole. You did it once please do it again. i cant pull my self out. Stuck in this pain my mind never rests catch me before i hit the ground. Every night i pray to the lord to send me my angel. The time is almost here. He tells me things i can understand but i cant see. Things with gardens and angels to guid me to my light to send me to my happiness. He also tells me that my angels arnt listining to there hearts. Falling deeper i cant see any more. Where is up and were is down my mind filled with all unanswered questions of the candel light that has burnt out. In my mind all is good but darkness rains. In this spiritual guide that has left me for the darkness to devower me. Can you see what i see. Can you see my moteves as the light of day and night is drowned out by the falling darkness in my mind. What is this all were is the angel is it i who is blinded by my own darkness that i walk by it. With no thought i roam in to darkness praying that my angel will catch me before i fall.
06/04/99 J.J.Oosthuizen
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YOU
even though i am dying
i don't care because you're still smiling
i can't hold this day
i dread this fantasy
this uncertenty has taken me over
recognize me any more
what have i done
look in too my eyes
what do you see
do you see this fantasy
do you see the uncertanty
do you care
caere about me
or am i just another fork in the road
pick which path
J.J.Oosthuizen.
I FEEL
Do you ever think of how i feel
All you have to do is listen
How many people talk to you like i do?
But you must always remember
The flowers bloom in spring
The trees are green in sommer
the leaves are gold in autumn
And it always snoes in winter
But i might not always be there
Like the four quaters of the year
Just remember the road hasnt ended yet
And you can still find me on it.
J.J.oosthuizen
IMPRISONED
Imprisoned for life.
The souls of many.
Not being able to speak out.
My sentince over.
No more will i do what you say.
Neveragain will you strike me
with your hand.
I see the world.
Years of frustration.
Ready to come out.
The pain caused
Is on your sholderes.
The fait you chose.
The way you die no one knows.And money can never repair.
What you stole from me
And all the kindness in the world
can never repair what you did.
Dont expect me to run to you
When you hold your arms out for me.
J.J.OOSTHUIZEN
WILL YOU BE THERE.
Will you be there when i die.
Will you be there by my side.
Will you hold my hand.
Will you touch my soul.
And you know if you die.
I will be there by your side.
Holding your hand.
Touching your soul.
And yes i will cry when you die
And long to be by your side
Holding your hand touching your soul.
And i will still cry.
till you die.
J.J.OOSTHUIZEN
ANCIENT LIFE.
Forgoten pain of ancient life.
tThe cities walles covered by jungle growth.
How many people died in this city.
Died in vein because of greed.
Greed of the king.
A childs half beried skull.
Died for a selfish ritual for rain.
The teror in the childs eyes.
Knowing her fait.
Her tiny throut.
Slit from ear to ear.
FOR WHAT?
NOTHING!
Except the greed and selfishness.
J.J.OOSTHUIZEN<
LISTEN
closer
do i have your attention
i give you all that i have
its been so long
i cant explain
i dont want to wait
its to late the show has begun
its been so long i cant confess
its been so pain full
being rejected now
would be suicide
dont want to hurt my self
is it all as it seems
so un resolved and so unredeemed
how will i know
and its been sso long
right now its been so rong
did i see a chance with you
in this strange world
still scared to beleve
but i am reaching and you retract
i tremble at the thought
THAT I AM FALLING.
J.J.Oosthuizen
this one you just read is very true send me an e mail about it
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CAN YOU SEE
Do you see what torment i live in. my love is gone. My life a mess all that i was before pulled out by my angel and fall back in. Why did i dout you. Why did i beleve you? so perfict i could hold you for ever. Move on they say but do they realy know what it is like to have a soul that wont let go of the hope it has for reunion with its soul mate. do they know what it is like to be pulled from darkness to feel how iut feels to be happy. the soul still crys yurning for this love to be returned and prayes for this one day were it will be truly happy. Till that day i will slowly die and wither turning to dust the wind will blow all memories of this dust away scattering it to the four corners of the earth to be for gotten.
J.J.Oosthuizen
06/04/99
so any way you have reached the end of my page i add more poetry every week cause i have so many i am taking my time so please send me your e mail adress and ill add you to my mailing list for the updates on the page.
hope you like the poems i need feed back on it if you can.
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THE FALT
the lord once sent me an angel
who took my pain and broken heart
heald it solid
made it hole
but i was bad
he took the angel away
my soul is now in darkness
as the pain sucks me in
and my broken heart devowers me
to leave me empty inside
were is my angel lord
please for give me for my sins
please send me my angel
to heal my broken heart and soul
before i drown in my own mind
lord i pray.
J.J.Oosthuizen
NEW POEM 06/09/99
still water
the fire burns
flames devowering
see it slowny destroying
everything
but water can never be destroyed
only turn invisible
turning to steam
like the love in my soul
will never dissapear
remember that
i am always yours
just call me and my steam
will once more be water flowing
like a river
never will my love be devowered
or destroyed
for there is a reason
a reason for this feeling in my soul
and the lord provides in strange ways
and tells me strange things
all i need to do is belever
for water can never be destroyed
J.J.Oosthuizen
06/22/99
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